27-07-06

Here we go (again)

I'm afraid I don't have any good news to tell you. Tumors in my liver have spread again, so the chemopills are obviously not working. We have to change and try  another kind of (ordinary) chemo. Since we're going on holiday next week, new treatment will start on 21st of August and then every 4 to 5 weeks for however long it takes. Best case scenario is that the tumors will shrink but the main goal now is to keep them stable and not growing any further. Doesn't that sound extremely optimistic? *sarcastic grinn* It's a complete puzzle to me how I can feel so good and full of life and at the same time have my body failing me totally. Oh, how I hate this f*ing disease! But things cannot be changed, so I'm once more going for it completely and full on with all the strength I have in me and that is a lot ! The new chemo I'll be receiving is a new version of  one of the chemo components I had seven years ago and is considered to be less toxic - where have I heard that before? I'll probably even keep my hair. Although that's not the most important thing, I'm pretty pleased about that. It has grown quite a bit in the past few weeks and I was actually  looking forward to going to the hairdresser soon. It has been over two years since I last went.

All this means I have three more weeks until the first chemo. Three weeks in which to include as much enjoyment and fun things as possible. Next Tuesday we're heading for the coast so that's a good start.

Seems like the angels did not hear me. Maybe I should shout louder. As a matter of fact I think I'm going to do that right now..... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Thanks. That helped a lot !

Take care and lots of love

15:20 Gepost door Anneke in Anneke | Permalink | Commentaren (6) |  Facebook |

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sterkte in deze toch wel heel moeilijke tijden weeral wij roepen in ieder geval mee naar hierboven hoor:-)

Gepost door: willy | 27-07-06

*** I don't know what to write,
I admire your optimism, your energy to go for it,
your courage - once again.

Big hug and enjoy these pre-chemo-weeks!

Gepost door: lavender faery | 27-07-06

life sucks.. :s *zucht*
(((Hug)))

Gepost door: kleintje | 27-07-06

~~ Life is not fair. It's pretty damn unfair. How I hate that!!! But go, my girl, fight another fight, I know you have it in you. And perhaps some day you'll be able to come along here, somewhere between chemo and all that... And then we can scream together!!!!!!Kiss for my sweet sweet friend!

Gepost door: Crisje | 27-07-06

Damn life is a bitch :-V
Try to enjoy the next few weeks and gather all the energy you'll need for what's coming. A lost battle is not a lost war and a new weapon is ready to fight those fu....g cells. Big hug!

Gepost door: Elly | 27-07-06

Life So sorry to read this ... Life isn't always easy!!
For you I'd wish it would be Anneke!!

I really hope this new treatment is going to help you. I'm am thinking of you in these rough times!!

Love and hugs,
S

Gepost door: FMS | 28-07-06

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